Poem: The serenity of your smile and the sincerity in your voice when you say, "I love you"

Poem: The serenity of your smile and the sincerity in your voice when you say, "I love you"

Do I like you a lot? Or do I honestly love you?
Isn't there a difference?
Is it because I "think" I can't live without you the reason why I say I love you?
I remember you telling me one day that you know I will be able to live without you.
I also remember that when we broke up and I was miserable beyond words, I managed to still live.
Does that mean that I don't love you? No. I love you not because I thought I couldn't live without you but because with you, life meant something totally different. My life did not change from the moment I met you. Period My life changed from the moment that I actually opened my heart. I let down my guard, I became vulnerable to you. The serenity of your smile and the sincerity in your voice when you say, "I love you" is what made me realize something. I must have feelings. I didn't go out with you at first because I liked you instantly. I was attracted to you and I was like most guys, just trying to get you under my belt. But when you said that me, I will be honest, I didn't say anything back but, "Yea" But under that "Yea" I was having an internal battle with my feelings. It was like devils and angels on shoulders. To be honest again, the devils won that battle and they told me to go along, keep the relationship going, so I did. I said "I love you" to you a couple times with a faint meaning behind it. But one night, under the three bright things in the sky that we like to call, Stars... The serenity of your smile and the sincerity in your voice when you said, "I love you" seemed like it froze time. I swear everything stopped and it was just me and you and what you just said, it was like I never heard those three words from you before but knew what they meant or like "reading your favorite book for the first time". I realized that the "I must have feelings" mind set changed to "I know I have feelings" because at that moment I didn't like you anymore, I honestly loved you. And when I was saying "I can't live without you" I was really saying "Life isn't the same without you, I don't want to live without you" So my life without you is a life wanting to be with you. Everything changes when I am with you. It feels like time stops with you. So the question: Do I like you a lot? Or do I honestly love you? I honestly love you. When we became separated, we broke up from a love fading relationship after eight months about two to three months ago. Just recently, October first, Our love reunited into one, and everything feels so much better than it did the first time, honestly like reading your favorite book for the first time, everything feels much better and our relationship isn't the same. It's better, and healthy. I love you, honestly. words, I managed to still live.
Does that mean that I don't love yuh?
No.
I love yuh not because I thought I couldn't live without yuh but because with yuh, life meant something totally different.
My life did not change from the moment I met yuh. Period
My life changed from the moment that I actually opened my heart. I let down my guard, I became vulnerable to yuh.
The serenity of yuhr smile and the sincerity in yuhr voice when yuh say, "I love yuh" is what made me realize something.
I must have feelings.
I didn't go out with yuh at first because I liked yuh instantly.
I was attracted to yuh and I was like most guys, just trying to get yuh under my belt.
But when yuh said that me, I will be honest, I didn't say anything back but, "Yea"
But under that "Yea" I was having an internal battle with my feelings.
It was like devils and angels on shoulders.
To be honest again, the devils won that battle and they told me to go along, keep the relationship going, so I did.
I said "I love yuh" to yuh a couple times with a faint meaning behind it.
But one night, under the three bright things in the sky that we like to call, Stars..
The serenity of yuhr smile and the sincerity in yuhr voice when yuh said, "I love yuh" seemed like it froze time.
I swear everything stopped and it was just me and yuh and what yuh just said, it was like I never heard those three words from yuh before but knew what they meant or like "reading yuhr favorite book for the first time".
I realized that the "I must have feelings" mind set changed to "I know I have feelings" because at that moment I didn't like yuh anymore, I honestly loved yuh.
And when I was saying "I can't live without yuh" I was really saying "Life isn't the same without yuh, I don't want to live without yuh"
So my life with out yuh is a life wanting to be with yuh.
Everything changes when I am with yuh. It feels like time stops with yuh.
So the question, Do I like yuh a lot? Or do I honestly love yuh?
I honestly love yuh.
When we became separated, we broke up from a love fading relationship after eight months about two to three months ago.
Just recently, October first, Our love reunited into one, and everything feels so much better then it did the first time, honestly like reading yuh favorite book for the first time, everything feels much better and our relationship isn't the same. It's better, and healthy.
I love yuh, honestly.

 

 

My Educational Experiences

Judging from my educational experiences, I am currently lazy and procrastinate a lot. In the past I would wait for the last minute to try and do work and I would get stressed out because it was a possibility that I couldn't bring my grade up but all along it my fault for the get go on why I was failing. Till this day I did not change from those experiences. For example, when I was attending Lincoln High School my teacher, Ms. Gray, assigned the class an essay to complete within a week. I did not start the essay till the last day, literally. I would go to my teacher and ask many question on how I can bring m,y grade up and ask for help on the essay, all at the last minute. Also, while I was attending Lincoln High School I was in this history class where at the end of every grading period we have to turn in a journal that contained our journal entry's from the beginning and end of the class. I would not do any of the entry's, maybe one or two but most of them I did not do. Then at the very last minute I would go to a friend and ask to copy her journal and I would rush myself and get stressed out. This is a bad habit that I need to break, but as of now I am still hanging on that habit. Currently, I am trying to break my habit in order to exceed in my education because being lazy and procrastinating is not the way to go far in life.

MY EDUCATIONAL TIMELINE

Webster Elementary School - CA Grades Kindergarten - 6th Grade
My experience was great because my favorite teacher of all time was my 6th grade teacher.

\Millennial Tech Middle School - CA Grades 7th Grade - 8th Grade
My experience was painful because I got in so much trouble.

Lincoln High School - CA Grades 9th Grade - First Semester of 10th Grade
My experience was alright because I did not get in much trouble and it was not my favorite school either.

San Pasqual Academy - CA Current
My experience so far is eagerness to leave because I hate it here.

Improvement

Over the past two years I have improved mostly in my behavior. When I was in middle school I was immature and constantly in trouble but as I transferred to high school I have been more mature and staying out of trouble. When it comes to how I have changed in my school work then that requires more thought. In middle school my writing skills were expressed by the teachers as "advance". They would say they love my writing because of the tone of voice I portray and I can keep them involved in the story. As I progressed to high school my writing skill diminished but I was still considered a terrific writer, the only thing that changed was my passion to write to my fullest capability. On to the next one, my reading skills were, in my mind, great when I was in middle school. I read a lot and I felt like I was a awesome reader but my test scored as a reader were not that high. As I went in to high school I became distracted from my social life and I lost my desire to read and did not read at all. My test scores were defiantly lower then middle school. Now a good reader should and most likely would be a good speaker. When I was in middle school I talked using slang although I knew how to talk with proper vocabulary and as I went to high school I carried on with my slang and still to this day even though I do know how to use proper choice of words. When it came to working in groups I was a team player in middle school and in high school, I had no change really. Last but not lease, my technology skills were not bad but not good while in middle school, I barley used technology. As I moved to high school I became a little more advance in technology then I was in middle school. I am still trying to improve all areas of my academic performances. I will continue to do that by working and staying out of trouble.

End of Year Reflection – Greatest High School Obstacle

During the past two year of my life my greatest obstacle was my circle of friends. The type of friends that I would be around was trouble makers and people who disregard the law on a daily basis and I would follow and be apart of that. I became a main factor in the group because I got so caught up in what we were doing. While I was at Lincoln High School I would do so much illigal activities that cause me to ditch school. My grades were the victim in  my actions. I would complain about my grades being so low but I never made a difference to bring them up. My actions would create a reputation for me and although I did not get in trouble with the law or the school with my actions, people still knew the truth and they would not truat me and I was banned from doing many activities that I wanted to do. My actions were my obstacle and I did not even try to change. Honestly, I felt like stressed out when ever I could  not do what I wanted so I drowned myself in my actions that caused my resistance to school activities. It was a bad desicion on my part, I still do not know why I continued to do the things that stopped me from getting what I want, it was contridicting myself. I still to this day continue on with what I was doing, I am still the same person that I was when I was at Lincoln, the same person from two years ago and the sad thing about it is that I am not making an effort to change.

How have you changed since freshman year?

When I was a freshman, I was attending Lincoln High School. Now, I am attending San Pasqual Academy. When I was a freshman at Lincoln HIgh School, I was extremely lazy with my school work. I would always get in trouble for breaking rules by either disrupting the class, getting into fights, being truant, defiance towards my teachers, I would procrastinate, or lie a lot. For example, I always got sent o=out of my english class for disrupupting the class by talking to my neighbors or even talking back to my teacher in a rude way. I would be truant to my algebra class multiple times and leave school grounds during school hours. Also I got passing grades but I was on the urge of failing because I would procrastinate on all my work. Now that I am at San Pasqual Academy I no longer do what I used to do, well I procrastinmate still but that is basically it. This shows that i have changed magnificently since freshman year. This also shows that it is a good thing that I changed schools otherwise I most likey would be doing the same actions as before. By my senior year, I hope to be a good student and on top of my school work, my main focus is to not procastinate as much because how I act will change with who I hang around with.

SPA Policy Blog Paragraph

One policy that i wish could be changed is the curfew time. Curfew is meant for those who do not know how to manage their time. Curfew is meant for those who need it, meant for discipline when needed, or meant for those who are incapable of staying out of nighttime trouble. If there is going to be a policy for curfew then it should be for those who either are getting in trouble or having bad grades, and also the curfew should not be so early-because when you cut off that extra time you are making extra time for the studying. For example, One Hour at SPA, curfew is 9:00pm while Two Hour is 8:00pm. Now yes its is only one hour difference but there is more, One Hour you are allowed out the house and not doing studies from 3:15pm through 5:30pm and 7:30pm through 9:00pm while Two Hour are allowed out the house with no studies from 3:15pm through 4:30pm and 7:30pm through 8:00. That leaves Two Hour people and extra hour(8:00pm through 9:00pm) to study or not be able to have freedom out the house, that is not fair. So if there is going to be a curfew for those who need it then it should be 9:00pm, the One Hour's curfew. But those who do not stay in trouble and have good grades should time themselves and have an appropriate curfew setting, like 11:00. So in conclusion, curfew is beneficial for those need it- not for those who are doing good.

Academic Language Week 35 - Sweatshops

Sweatshops are a violation of people's rights because they force you to do extreme LABOR with the reward being less then minimum wadge. This is ridiculous, nobody should ever have to work so hard for nothing. It is a violation to people's rights by being unfair, treating the workers like animals and not recognizing them of their hard-work, it's devastating that this is happening. Now some might argue that these workers signed a CONTRACT, coming into the job knowing what they are up for. But that still doesn't give anybody the right to over-work the workers or even treat the like slaves. Yes, they did signed the CONTRACT but they didn't sign up to be slaves, the bosses choose to treat them like that and they are also manipulating the workers, knowing they need the money, so they do anything to them because they know that they will take it and not quit because they know the workers need the money. These workers APPLY themselves too much to not get any credit and be treated like slaves, they do not deserve to be treated like this, these workers rights of equality is being striped. Another reason why Sweatshops are a violation to people's rights is that they take away a human right that John Locke proposed, stating that freedom is one of the three human rights that every human being has when they are born, working at a sweatshop will strip you of this right. So in conclusion, Sweatshops are a violation to people's rights, by striping them of both freedom and equality.

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